today is 9/11--three little numerals combined together to signify a loss of innocence for an entire nation and beyond.

i spent today in bed pretty much w/ a migraine, but i did spend some time reflecting on the past year, the most tumultuous year in the history of my existence so far. i think back on the loss i suffered but i realize that there's so much that i've gained. i lost my dad, my marriage, and my faith in an institutionalized christianity. but i did gain an assurance of seeing my dad again and the assurance that he loves me still, and i've gained a contentment and happiness on my own that i never knew i could have, and i've gained a faith in a God who chose to shower me with love and mercy when i doubted his existence and questioned his goodness.

i thought today of all the people in my life who have shown me love and whom i love as well. i am grateful for these people, many who live far away from me. it blows my mind when i think of them all.

it's also been a great year of rock and roll, so i guess i'll close with my recent playlist, which i haven't disclosed in a while--

s/t--serene (my goal in life right now is to see these guys in concert)
s/t--holiday runner
roobrik--the world inside
from dayton with love--morella's forest
ian's moore's got the green grass--ian moore
via satellite--ian moore
personal vol comp--vigilantes of love
personal uncle tupelo/son volt/wilco comp--aforementioned
kids in philly--marah
thirteen--teenage fanclub
smeared--sloan
parachutes--coldplay
amnesiac--radiohead
bringing it all back home--bob dylan
the photo album--death cab for cutie
in aeroplanes over the sea--neutral milk hotel
the better button--mink lungs
100 broken windows--idlewild
wreck your life--old 97's
zapruder point comp--zp