i have a goal...it's a really simple goal...i want to take the train to work at least 3 times a week...it sounds so simple...and it would be if i wouldn't turn my alarm off before falling back into bed in the morning...hitting the snooze button is one thing...turning the alarm off entirely is leaving yourself at the mercy of your body to get itself up without help from some noisy radio morning talk show...

...yes, i missed the train this morning...by like over an hour...i am so sick of driving...and i'm actually getting disgusted by the exhaust fumes on the highway...and that's w/ my windows rolled up...this morning, i looked in the rearview mirror at the reflection of the downtown skyline, and i was horrified at the haze of smog...ugh! people have to breathe that, ya know! add to that a mercedes benz crushed from both ends on the edens and construction on the tri-state and what you've got is a morning rush nightmare...

i was having a discussion earlier w/ ted's brother dave about how things like the industrial revolution, science and technology have affected human behavior and thought...we're so consumed with these things that we hardly have any free time at all...i just can't imagine what it would be like to live in an agrarian society or a hunter/gatherer society with no cars, trains, planes, boats, computers, tv, electricity, telephones, cell phones, stoves, microwaves, running water, toilets, melon balls, cd players, music, paper, writing instruments, books...i mean, what kind of thoughts would you even have? then dave & i were talking about practicing boredom...meaning practicing doing nothing...that's so hard to do for most folks i would imagine...i think it's a good idea though...to just sit still and not do anything for a few moments of the day...instead of just going w/ the crazy current of everyday life and being swept away...

been listening to--
dust--screaming trees
pink heart yellow moon--dressy bessy
PL--BM